the perfect sky is torn.

you know what suck bout this. you suck. what we had suck. fyi, at first i dont love you, seriously. i just wanna play with you. never think to get serious with you. dont love you, not on that moment. then we started texting. got closer. but i still didnt fall in love with you. after months, then only i got crushed on you. yes, just crush, not love. we dated. i still remember our first date, still fresh in my heart and mind. every dates we had. i remember every second i spent with you. remember the night you told me you love me? the happiest moment for me, ever. honestly, i've waited for that moment to come and finally it happened. for real. imagine how excited i was that night. my heart goes like a roller coaster. imagine how happy i was. how i cant sleep. how i keep on reread your text msgs. i know im in love. and this sucks. you made me fall in love with you, gave me hope. dear, you're the reason why i can easily get over him. but now everything fell apart. yes, im torn. i fake myself sometimes when im around you. i dont want you and others to see the weak side of me. maybe this is easy for you. i wish i could yell at you and tell you all this. i wish i could just kick you and scream at you. so, what the end of us? what will happen to us? i need strength to go near you. hardly to talk to you. cant even text you. but dont worry, i'll be okay. just need some times to recover. im healing.

P/S : im still not over you.